Live from the main control room of myhead!
Hi! it’s been a while since I post my last one, I know not many missed them, but anyway I’m going to give it a go again anyway.
After what happened last night my mind doesn’t really bond with each other correctly, okay it’s a shameful sin and mention every bad words in the dictionary you could call it that, and believe me I don’t want you or anybody else to feel what I felt last night.
I don’t know how am I feeling right now or what should I feel. All I know I just could describe what I am thinking right now. It has been too bloody long since I could laugh and enjoy myself, I always think that I am okay but for that I have to pay a very expensive price, from my girlfriend to even a bigger price tag, myself. I’m loosing me. I lost the me that I liked before.
My wish with would not even a hard one for e a superficial looser to guess. So, yes, I still love her hell,, I love her very much,, but I’m not that selfish not to feel happiness that she has with her current boyfriend, I believe for now it’s best to left things between me and her stood as it stood now. I’ve cause to much damage to us trying to change to what we had now into what we had before and trying to do it again would just damage it even more. , I do hope that she is really the one, that one day we might start things all over again but if she’s not I know there are plenty of them out there that would be glad to be a permanent feature of my life.
Last I wish that I could find me again, me that everybody love, me that like the crowd and enjoy the time of being independent.
Oh by the way I’m not standing still or melted into an ocean of tears, I’m trying to find me and just wait a little bit more I have a new hobby that I would like to share it with you guys. Till we meet again!!
After what happened last night my mind doesn’t really bond with each other correctly, okay it’s a shameful sin and mention every bad words in the dictionary you could call it that, and believe me I don’t want you or anybody else to feel what I felt last night.
I don’t know how am I feeling right now or what should I feel. All I know I just could describe what I am thinking right now. It has been too bloody long since I could laugh and enjoy myself, I always think that I am okay but for that I have to pay a very expensive price, from my girlfriend to even a bigger price tag, myself. I’m loosing me. I lost the me that I liked before.
My wish with would not even a hard one for e a superficial looser to guess. So, yes, I still love her hell,, I love her very much,, but I’m not that selfish not to feel happiness that she has with her current boyfriend, I believe for now it’s best to left things between me and her stood as it stood now. I’ve cause to much damage to us trying to change to what we had now into what we had before and trying to do it again would just damage it even more. , I do hope that she is really the one, that one day we might start things all over again but if she’s not I know there are plenty of them out there that would be glad to be a permanent feature of my life.
Last I wish that I could find me again, me that everybody love, me that like the crowd and enjoy the time of being independent.
Oh by the way I’m not standing still or melted into an ocean of tears, I’m trying to find me and just wait a little bit more I have a new hobby that I would like to share it with you guys. Till we meet again!!
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8:17 AMandy jgn mellow2..huhu
get a grip of yourself darliingg :)
u'll be okay!!
cerita2 dunks klo lagi sedih..
11:55 AM
nyebut ndy...nyebut...haha hidup itu musti dipandang dgn kacamata faried...gak ada di dunia ini yang tidak menyenangkan..semua bisa diakalin...
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